Poison Dart Frogs are some of the tiniest and beautiful creatures on the planet; they are also incrediably deadly. So, why call this blog "Tiny Dart Frog"? It goes back to the old adage - good things come in small packages. We are all created exactly as God has intended - unique, strong, and beautiful.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
on becoming a pastor
I've been thinking a lot about church lately. I've recently been ordained as a pastor, so I guess that's a good thing. I thought my years of study, my life experiences, and my life-long experience with church had prepared me well...and they had, they did. There was a ceremony - which was exciting. There were prayers - which made me cry. There were friends and family - which made me feel amazingly loved. And then....I was a pastor. At least, I was declared a pastor.
Here's what I am realizing though....the actual "becoming," takes a bit of time, takes a little growing into. And the truth is, even when I am worried or stressed, the "becoming" is so much more than I ever dreamed.
On Becoming a Pastor
Flushed cheeks and shaky whisper...
with heavy hands of God's promise
on her head.
how the Spirit weaves hearts to churches
so delicately -
with strength of a whirlwind and the softness of a sigh.
how one's heart finds a new home
so quickly -
with the aching joy of bursting.
She worries, she hopes, she cries, and she laughs.
She remembers God's promise
to soothe worries, to be her hope, to wipe away tears, and be her joy.
This is, she is coming to see, what becoming a pastor means.
My name is Christine Stephan, although I answer mostly to Mom or Pastor.
I am a Lutheran pastor for an amazing group of Jesus' disciples just outside Washington DC AND a mom to 3 of the best boys in the universe.
I blog here about family and faith and frustrations....That thing we call 'life'.
My boys are passionate about all things legos, anything involving a ball, video games, and chocolate.
I am an avid runner, a lover of interesting books and deep conversation, a very amateur writer, and also a lover of chocolate.
I also love theology (which is weird, I know), but I don't love theology more than Jesus.
This blog is hardly ever profound, but it is real. As a pastor and I mom, I find 'real' to be more helpful in my journey with Jesus than crossing all the t's and dotting all the i's.