It still sounds strange for me to say it.
But, I'm actually not moving yet...because I have to pack.
I'm packing. Packing, packing, packing...at least I am trying to.
I'm not so good at packing because I am not a pack-rat. I do not by my very nature keep things that I do not think I need. Most things I own because in some ways they are special to me.
So, when I sat down this afternoon to go through the FIVE large shopping bags filled with artwork my children made... WOW!
That may be all I can say- WOW! I looked at all their 'All About Me' books from pre-school and their hand-print turkey pictures and their funny chalk self portraits.
I don't need this stuff...it's been in my closet for years and I haven't peeked at it, but oh, did my heart just swell. Swell with happiness when I thought about how Cooper used to want to be an astronaut; swell with longing for those tiny baby dimples of Carter's; swell with joy at the "You are the Best" cards from Jackson. And then I saw this scrap...this tiny scrap that I had saved and I remembered it immediately.
It was just a piece of computer paper, with two red stick figures, standing by a little yellow stick figure baby. Above it were 3 blue candles and 1 pink candle. And I remembered this picture. I remembered the day that Cooper brought me this picture and gave it to me with a huge smile on his face. And he told me to hang on the fridge, because that's where all the best art goes.
That was a day when I knew that God had been working in Cooper's life and I didn't even know it. That was a day when the Spirit was manifest and I thought, "Oh - this may be what being a mom is all about....a scrap of paper, a few crayons, a giant smile, an outstretched hand with a gift just for me."
If I'm being honest...I almost have tears in my eyes now.
I need that picture.
I can't recycle it. I must pack it up and take it to our new home. There are many of those pieces of art which will not make the journey (because, let's be honest...I really only need one bag - not five!). But I think, that scrap may find a new home...
It's a home we don't know yet, but I have a feeling that when I hang that picture up it'll feel a bit more like home.
But, in the meantime - I will have to continue to pack...maybe I will find more treasures.
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